First Look

It was a long day indeed. i have no idea whether the day did really had a sun rise or a dark sun set. for me the day was all about watching her face and face alone. what else would matter to me when am such madly in love with her. what else wil ever glitter more brighter than her to me. i am having my dream with me and am sure nothing else would trouble me that time. and yes. love is all about hearts. i dont know why but i feel like loosing my heart away every time she looks me. a heartbeat just skips off. like eyes are the mirrors of heart i look into her eyes and i could find my whole lifetime there And that smile did really assure me a definite yes to my questions. and i would wonder a thousand times how can a single glance of her be such promising and satisfying. but i know once i will be the reason for her tear yes there is a tragedy in every great story just as in mine. i would once be the reason for her greatest sadness coz once i become the reason for her biggest happiness i am the one who will probably hurt her most. and love is a weird thing in which it strengthens and grows no matter what ever happens, while it hurts you deeply, while you enjoy being in it and every single second you continue to be in it, it tends to grow and hard to forget. And as far as i am concerned true love is the only thing which will make you a better person, it teaches you almost everything, teaches you how important relationships are and how important is to keep it safe and strong, what is it like being a good human, how large your heart is, value of each person, meaning of family, how rude you have been to people around you, how badly you can be hurt, what a second really mean, how badly having a phone can irritate you and all that crap and stupid stuff. but it is like going in a rollercoaster of different variety of feelings it is sometimes tough and sometimes so simple to be through. and afterall it is a fantastic experience being in love and much more stupidly in love with someone. where you will take or will be forced to take master degree in telling lies, acting as if u dont know anything and it is not at all your fault, telling all that yuck dialogs for which you had felt so shameless afterwards.

y do u lose moments...??

Wen my life was shaded wid pain.. wen tears filled my eyes.. my heart felt tat coldness n worried... n i made my heart undrstand - y do cry in sadness.. y..?? evr since in tis world the same had hapnd.. these r ol silly madness, these r ol silly dramas.. n time wil tak it ol frm u.. a little sadness stays bak in evry heart... a liitle lonly stays evry heart.. y do try.. n try..?? evry moment is a new season.. then y do lose moments lik tis... n y do u cry my heart..?

Oozhukil petta undampori..!!

ozhukil petta udampori..!!

enthayyirikum ethinte avastha.... onnu oohikan kazhiyumo..?? ille...? pakshe enik kazhiyum karannam ente avastha eppo ethande athe poleya...!! njanum oru ozhukil pettu poyi... ozhukil petta oru udampori pole kara kannathe ozhiki kondirikunu njan....!! nighalke enne enthu vennameghilum parayam..... palarum parayunumunde..... jeevithathil ende vazhi thetti poyyo..?? enthu kondo enik nannavan sathikunilla.... enni ottu nannavan therumanichittumilla....!! enthayalum nighale oru vithathilum bathikatha karyghal annu ethellam..... koode nadakunnavanu eghanne panni vekam ennu mathram chinkikunna ee samohathode enik onnum parayanilla.... njan ee parayunna pottatharam nighalode vayyikan njan avishyapetto...?? enghil pinne enthina eppo vicharikunne evanu vatta ennu..!! njan eghanne jeevicha nighalke entha.... enne jeevikan samathikatha oru jana samuham mathram annu eppo ende munil ullathe.... aghanne oru lokathil jeevikunna enik vatta ayyyilenghile albuthamullu...? oru ozhukil petta udamporik ethinte jenmathu karayil keran ulla chance undo ?? nighal para....?? athe poleya njanum....jenmathu njan nannavan ulla chance illa.... ethoke aringhittum chillavar enne nannakan thunighiraghiyyitunde..... enne thallanda acha njan nannavilla ennu njan kallu pidichu paranghu... enittum manusilavatha chillar eppozhum ee boomiyil jeevichiripunde.... enne vere oru chance unde udamporik karayil keran pattunna oru avastha.... ariyammo...?? athayathu vellam anghu vatti ponnam.... athayathu nighal ellavarum anghu chathu ponnam ennu saram..... nadakko..?? appo aara udamporiyye karayil kettathathu..?? vellam... alle..?? athu pole thanne aara enne jeevikan samthikathathu..?? nighal ororutharum...alle...?? aara enne nannavan samathikathe...?? athinum utharavathikal nighal thanne..!! enthina eghanne mattullavare shalyapeduthan jeevikunne....??? poyyi chathoode...?? entha njan chothichathil entha vella thettundo..?? entha chothichathu sahichille..?? aaa..... ethu pole thanneya ennikum.... enodum chothikarunde.... "Ninak nannayi koode..??" ennu..... appo njan sahikanno...?? ellavarkum aviravarude karym varumbo allenghilum eghanneya....!! swanthamayyi nannavan pattiyilenkilum bakki ullavan mare nannakum ennu mudra kuthi eranghiyirikunna kore thendykal unde ee nattil...!! aa shalyam mathram mathy manushyanu jeevitham thanne madukan...!! nighalum ethokke chillapo anubavichu kannum alle...?? undenghil eppo nighal chinthikunundakum evan allu kollalo enikk oru kallathu thonniya karyghal thanneya evan ee parayunne...!! chillapol nighalke eppozhum athu thonnunundakam...!! ichiri prayam koodiyal ellavarkum thanniye varunna oru tharam asukamannu ethu...!! athu nammel adhyam manusillakannam....!! nammele chetha parayumbo nammel namude bagam sheriyakan nokkaruthe..... pakaram ethellam angereke asukamayathu konde parayukayannenu urachu vishasichu vallare easy ayyi thalli kallayannam...!! aghanne lokathil ellarum parayunathu kettu nannavan poyyal....onnu manassu thurannu jeevikan eppozha kazhiyuka...?? aghanne nannavan poyya athinu mathram neram kannukayullu...!! appozhannu nammel ellavarum chinthikenda oru karym ullathu.... oozhukil petta udampori.... marannu poyyo athine patti...?? enthannale oru udamporiye patti paranghu thudanghiyya karym eppo evide ethi.... eghanne thanne annu nammel orurutharudeyum jeevithavum.... oridathe thudanghi etho oridathu athu anghu avasanikum...!! njan enthaylum albert ainstein akum, prime minister akum..... anghu kombatha allavum ennu okke vishwasikunnavar ethu onnum kelkanda tto...!! bakki ullavarke mathram njan nalkunna oru cheriya upadhesham annu ethu....!! nammelil kooduthalum oozhukil petta udamporikal annu...!! jeevithathinte randu thumbukal thammil kootti muttukunna thirakil swantham jeevitham jeevikan marakaruthe nighal ororutharum...!! jeevitham enikullathu pole thanne nighalkum onne ullu...!! athu anghu veruthe jeevichu therkan ullathalla....!! nannayi nalla adichu pollichu thanne jeevikan ullathannu...!! eghanne okke vishwasikunna enne nighlil arkenghilum nannakan pattumenna gunda vicharam undenghil athu eppol thanne evide thanne anghu kuzhichu moodiyek....!! nadakilla ennu njan urappu tharunu...!! ende jeevitham ende mathram annu... athil nighalil arkullathilum kal kooduthal adhikaram enikunde.... aghanne alla ennu parayan... kazhiyyo....?? paisa yude mathram purakke odunna ee lokathil ende ee kochu jeevitham onnu jeevichu therkan enne konde samathikatha ee lokathe pinne njan eghanne annu kannedathe...?? paisa ullavante shaddy yude vare brand nokki adutha divasam athu medikan paisa undakan parakam payunna oru tharam 3rd rate jenatha yode entha njan paraya...!! ethinellam apurath oru jeevitham undennum athu onnu aaswathikannam ennu agrahikunnath thettanno...?? thettanno....?? enni eppo thettannenghil pollum enne bathikatha karyma athu...!! enthayalum vellam vattan pokunilla....anna pinne udamporik oozhukathe vere margam illalo...!! athu pole thanne njanum oozhukunu.... jeevithathinte ethenghilum nimishaghallil vechu nighal enne kannumbol orkannam.... eghanne ellam parayunna oru viddi manasulla oru payyana evan...!! evane nannakan enne konde kazhiyilla... enne anghu veruthe vettekk...!! pakshe vere oru sadyatha koode unde...!! ee oru jeevithathinte oozhukil njanum orikallum nannayi kooda ennila..!! orikal enne pattiyum mattuvallavar nallath parayum.... njanum orikal nannavum enna vishvasathode oozhukil petta udamporiye pole ende jeevitham enneyum bakki....!! ethrayum neram enne sahicha nighalod valare athikam nanniyodu koode njan nirthunu....!! enne nighalke chinthikam....!!

Smiling Pain..!!

I think deep pain in heart is the toughest situation that can be faced by a human....where he has got a situation to smile...A situation where he is incapable and unable to scream out his or her feelings...
Do you guys know what it feels like,its really hard and you should feel that to understand what it will be and what is it meant to be a virtual hurt locker.

There are so many intense feelings that human beings would experience in their life but the most intense will be the smiling pain......because it hurts you the most and it has got to do it where ever it feels like.....you will be let down by it ,you will be shattered by it...and a correct definition for that would be a collection of bad feelings......which includes everything ,everything and everything in it...that would take all your nights ,every one of your tears will lead to it ,make your happiness just vanish....you cant even imagine about that situation like that na...?and might have gone through that once...and if yes now your heart started beating fast...you started remembering the past...moments which you will never get back and words you left to say them and mistakes that you never meant to do.....there are several things for all of us to think of...and as time went ,we made our soul and mind hard that will make us sad never again...but will sometime pain when the job is of our hearts right?

Why are we judging our self WRONG?

Do you have a problem? What kind of a stupid question is that huh? You might be thinking like this Na? Yes you are absolutely right. No one in this world is free from problems. Every human will have some kind of problem. Are problems a big problem for you? If yes be beware about your situation there is a very big chance of loosing hope. Most of us simply decide some things in life as if i am having the biggest problem in life we almost think as no one ever in life had experienced such a tragedy as i am having. At least once in our life we all have gone through this emotion right!

Are these right? We must think for a while very thoughtfully. Once in your life you have been in a very bad condition or sometimes you may in such condition now. now we must think, but we are always wrong in doing this - we think such things as - Why are these happening to me? Why is god so cruel to me? I can't face this situation? There is no meaning in living like this, No one can ever understand me, There is no way to get out of this, And there are many more arguments that we will raise to our self and we often finds difficult to get an answer for these questions. As a result we looses our hope, Forgets our duties, Our goals, The ones who love us, The ones who had lived their while life for us [parents] and there will a lot of things popping up your mind that you would forget. Is this for what we are made for? Are we so very afraid of just simple obstacles in life and are you sure that you will not have a more worst situation again in your life.

How could you live peacefully thinking of these things? You will make yourself mad,and is that you want? Never, every questions in your life has answer for it. God has never planned anything for you without intentions. And always have faith in yourself. Believe that you will have a better situation tomorrow. Great is the art of beginning but greater is the art of ending.....

Unspoken.....

Saldon Gracious that's me.I don't know how to blog but the thing is that i have started that habit and i strongly believe that it will be fun and craze for me once in my life.Now let me tell you guys about me.am not going to tell you all those good things about me to just make you laugh at me but i will tell you things that i sincerely know about me in this blog.Let us get to the matter without making you much waiting.....

Am Saldon Gracious, from ernakulam and that's all about me.You will come to know better about me very soon once you get started with this blog.am i so talkative?Ah i don't know it but yes here is the space where i can relieve all my feelings and thoughts in me.Lets get in to the matter straight.Am having a heart which doesn't really know what to do in life and what is it really made for? Is there something in this world that i should do?I don't know. There might be something. I trust so. I hope so But that's not i want u to know about me and you too want something interesting huh? Yes,i have something for you then! And that's my life story itself. I have a empty heart which is completely ready to do anything for others and this is what others think of me and only some of them but its completely wrong according to me because what is the need in that? Whats might be the reason and intention for this move? Ah anyway i don't know it. Everyone has a advice for the ones who are sad and alone in life, and do you what really is that? Tell your problems to one you trust the most. This is absolutely wrong. You don't agree huh? Yes,you might be right but i told you before, this is the case of my life and here you come to understand me and my feelings [might be wrong] pardon me for this cruelty. Is that necessary to be happy by making others sad? Is that necessary to be free by making others alone? Is that necessary that others should know your situation? Is that necessary that your innocence must be felt by others? Answer we have is NO. And sometimes YES. Why should we think so? Are we jealous to see others living a better life? The answer for that is absolutely YES.

The only one in your life who can solve all your problems in yourself. No one else can understand your problem as deeply as you have experienced that in your life, then what is the need in sharing those things to others. I am never saying you that you should never share your problems to others but am insisting here that your problems can be solved by you only. The main thing that we should do to clear of our problems is that to change our attitude. Our approach to a situation. About 90% of the problems are just caused because of this, only because we don't know how to deal with situations. Why should we be depressed for problems in life? As in my view, life is just like a sudoku , and all you have to do is, just rearrange it. And your problems will be be burned out in air. Even without leaving its ashes in your life. You must make your living with your hand and with the same iron hand you must crush out your problems and there is no need for any kind of help.......that's only because you are more stronger than the one that can help you. So why wait, tighten your belts and start living your life....and you know what the best best way to prepare for life is to start living, world is round and the place which may seem like the end may also be only the beginning. So best wishes my friends.